Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Monday, May 11, 2009
happy mother's day all!
This weekend wasn't insane or crazy. I just stayed in a lot, i've been staying in a lot. one because im actually trying to be sober and it's not so bad. peer pressure sucks though! haha.
friday- party with sonia and will yadda yadda, that was cool. I DIDNT DRINK! hahah it sweet... it got raided pretty quick but whatever, high school people arent down for shit. i've come to realize a lot within so little time it's weird. then i went to hangout with my david! i havent hung out with his asian ass in such a long time i really miss his company and how we would go on hours on end about random shit. if we ever had a camp/sleep over party we'd probably be the last asleeep talking on and on about cow poop. aaha.
saturday- i work up and had to take my sister to corona so i went to get my mothers day gift. i got her a gift certificate to south coast so she could buy make up or soemthing. i dont really know what she needs to be honest. ahhah then i got kotomi a gift because even though wade and i arent together that woman has been there for me even when my mom hasnt. shes like my second mother and i admire her for all of her dedication to her family even with her circumstances. so i got her a basket of flowers i thought were cute and a card. then some random guy comes up to me and asks to fix the dent out of my car and im like alright dude 100$ fine. and i actually ended up giving him 80 but whatever nigga did an alright job. ahaha so then i went to drop off the flowers and she wasnt home. i was like a little hesitant to go in but i was like whatever i miss cuda too. then i dropped it off.
i saw him just like whatever, and i couldnt help but feel like a little girl. but i got over it as soon as he started talking. he's so mean now. whatever i played with cuda and he came over and called me wierd for playing with my dog? i didnt know there was a manual on how to play with your puppy properly. then i gave him a hug and was off.
but i heard the song you had on. and i miss you...
today was a nice day woke up late didnt want to do breakfast. ihop is so nasty! grossssssss. then bbq at my grandmas' spent forever and a day in traffic. but when i went to starbucks and i started my car, our song came on the radio and i couldnt help but wonder if you heard it too. probably just me though hopelessly in love with you.
friday- party with sonia and will yadda yadda, that was cool. I DIDNT DRINK! hahah it sweet... it got raided pretty quick but whatever, high school people arent down for shit. i've come to realize a lot within so little time it's weird. then i went to hangout with my david! i havent hung out with his asian ass in such a long time i really miss his company and how we would go on hours on end about random shit. if we ever had a camp/sleep over party we'd probably be the last asleeep talking on and on about cow poop. aaha.
saturday- i work up and had to take my sister to corona so i went to get my mothers day gift. i got her a gift certificate to south coast so she could buy make up or soemthing. i dont really know what she needs to be honest. ahhah then i got kotomi a gift because even though wade and i arent together that woman has been there for me even when my mom hasnt. shes like my second mother and i admire her for all of her dedication to her family even with her circumstances. so i got her a basket of flowers i thought were cute and a card. then some random guy comes up to me and asks to fix the dent out of my car and im like alright dude 100$ fine. and i actually ended up giving him 80 but whatever nigga did an alright job. ahaha so then i went to drop off the flowers and she wasnt home. i was like a little hesitant to go in but i was like whatever i miss cuda too. then i dropped it off.
i saw him just like whatever, and i couldnt help but feel like a little girl. but i got over it as soon as he started talking. he's so mean now. whatever i played with cuda and he came over and called me wierd for playing with my dog? i didnt know there was a manual on how to play with your puppy properly. then i gave him a hug and was off.
but i heard the song you had on. and i miss you...
today was a nice day woke up late didnt want to do breakfast. ihop is so nasty! grossssssss. then bbq at my grandmas' spent forever and a day in traffic. but when i went to starbucks and i started my car, our song came on the radio and i couldnt help but wonder if you heard it too. probably just me though hopelessly in love with you.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
It's gonna take a miracle to bring me back
Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
im slowly getting over this. i don't want to give up because i know that you still love me as much as im still in love with you. as hard as it is i need to let go. id feel a lot better if there was a direct end instead of you hiding your feelings but i'll never know. and we'll never be and i can't help but be so disappointed in everything. im moving on with my life i just thought you'd like to be part of it. this front is only fooling you, everyone else can see right through it.
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it
And I'll never give myself to another
The way I gave it to you
Don't even recognize
im slowly getting over this. i don't want to give up because i know that you still love me as much as im still in love with you. as hard as it is i need to let go. id feel a lot better if there was a direct end instead of you hiding your feelings but i'll never know. and we'll never be and i can't help but be so disappointed in everything. im moving on with my life i just thought you'd like to be part of it. this front is only fooling you, everyone else can see right through it.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
weird
i have the weirdest feeling around. sometimes i feel like i've fallen out of love with you but then when im with its like nothing ever happened. but i can't get it out of my head. so here i am blurting it on my blog. sometimes i think actually i know that lately my emotions have been getting the best of me and im okay with it because if i were thinking straight. i wouldnt take you back. but i love you too much. its that
too much
too much love not enough space and then when we do have space its likeee ehhh. id rather not be with you? idk its complicated. youre too selfish for my taste. but man do i love the shit out of you.
too much
too much love not enough space and then when we do have space its likeee ehhh. id rather not be with you? idk its complicated. youre too selfish for my taste. but man do i love the shit out of you.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
boooooom
I can't tell if i'm in love with you yet, but i love the time we spend with each other. when we're alone without all the bs, its beautiful. i hate when you blow up on me for stupid stuff but it just reminds me of how much you really do care about me. i miss you all of you. it's a lot different now though. its that awkward crush back like in middle school. and i like it.
♥
♥
Friday, March 27, 2009
tonight
battle of the bands! i'll post pictures tomorrow hopefully!<3
life is getting better there's no denying its because of you. it's no longer a need
life is getting better there's no denying its because of you. it's no longer a need
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
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