can i kick it?

scenario- a tribe called quest
I feel like theres this current itch i can't scratch and everytime i hear anything that reminds me i et this annoyed anxiety that i cant shake its so annoying! i dont know how else to describe it. like why would you need to buy off people? its such a stupid concept. i cant describe it. i hate the fact that people just try to rub you off like you were never there to begin with and thats not it at all. im here to stay so bring it on bitches. i have no problem i'll just laugh it off when it blows up in your face! i cant believe it. its really under my skin and i cant shake it. im just trying to listen to music and shut people out so i can relax or like idk channel myself! and i want spring rolls if you bring me some right now i would love you. because my mom took my car and shes a whore!

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i want to start getting back into poetry i really miss it. i miss having substance in my life maybe thats what im missing. i dont know. i reall feel like my life is going no where all i have right now is my puppy he means the world to me and is the only thing that is permanent. just like if i were to have a kid, minus the horrible pain. i miss being deep. so heres to a change in everything, hopefully i'll come through.

Today's a new day

For some reason, I'm just coasting again. I feel like I need a HUGE wake up call like someone come over here and bitch slap me. I wish I knew how to study because I don't and I'll admit it! I have money and I spend a lot I need to put it in a fund for like when I trasnfer or something. I have a puppy, his name is CUDA, but he doesn't love me. He loves wade's mom which is understandable she's with him like everyday of the hour. I don't know if I'm quiet bitter or just whats the word... idk ...awe SELFish. hahah. I miss my friends. I got this notebook. PRETTY TIGHT. I am really lonely, I need attention. My boyfriend's busy with his stuff. But I don't know where I fit in. Everythings just taking its toll on me. I just need someone to help me and be like it's okay everything is okay, you'll be fine; here's a hug. but no.. no one yet.



can you be my savior?