Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
dreams
i've been having the wierdest dreams lately. like last night i dreamt that some kids were getting raped by their granpa and there was this yarn signal everytime it happened and shizz. wtf that was like semi real semi cartoon too. i feel so lost. hahah and the night before that i cant remember but i remember telling my boyfriend about it maybe he remembers but it was some weird shit again. hahaha idk dude everytime i wake up my body is so sore and like still sleeping makes me fall back asleep and then i wake up with a HUGE headache!im sitting here at work and its boring as fuck cause im lazy. i don twant to do shit until after i eat so im blogging then i'll be too full and lazy from eatin gto do anything then by the end of the day i'll pick up my little sis and it will be done . i need to pick up my jeans too. hahaha.oh fuck i think i need to go into like shoppaholics anonymous or some shit. cause i buy a lot of shit and just keep it. hahaha. now im off to get my nails done toodles!... yeah i've been having the weirdest dreams and i wake up exhausted! i dont know whats wrong with me but i think i have like sleep achnea? i dont know how to speell. this post is old im goign to start a new one!! :D
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
20
1. List things you want to say to 20 people.
2. Don't say who they are towards.
3. Feel free to receive comments, but don't confirm or answer anything
4. Never discuss it again
1) You are the strongest person i know. without your love and heart of gold i would not be able to be where i am today. i know i never had a strong enough relationship with you and i never got to express how much gratitude i have towards you but i want you to know that i love you, unconditionally.
2) you never cease to amaze me.both positively and negatively. theres this chemistry between us that i cant break no matter how hard it gets youre always there. i love you and hate you but reguardless i always want you.
3) I miss how we used to be so close like sisters and now that we're growing up we're dirfting lets bring it back to old times despite our busy schedules.
4) I wish you could find your own style and attitude instead of borrowing mine. but nonetheless we're still good friends.
5) I wish you would just get over her, honestly she's just never going to give you the attention you deserve! she's kinda like nancy catch my drift?
6) I want you to find someone so you wont be lonely, you deserve it after everything you do for everyone.
7) If only you weren't so naive. boys will only bring you down hill and i hope you wont end up like me.
8) I'm sorry for you lost recently, I just want you to know that i know what you did to me & my family, i can see youre a better person now, so i forgive you.
9) I hate you so much, how can you be so vain and shallow? how could you be so superficial? everyone hates you, you know that? they just dont want to say anything since we've been friends for so long. but dear, youre no friend of mine.
10) Shape up your act, youre in highschool now things are different if you slip away now; there's no telling who/when you'll be saved. if you will be saved.
11) You're truly a happy person and when I am around you you make me a really good/happy person. Im really thankful youre in my life and have gotten really close to me.
12) I miss you, you were mine.
13) I wish you would just be the person you once were, for me and the family. but i guess you cant teach an old dog new tricks.
14) Youre a fucking slut, i hate you. you cause so much tension for everyone and you just dont realize it! no one wonder he left you for another. you psychotic bitch. ughhh
15) Thank you for everything you've done for me and continue doing. youre like my guardian angel in human-form.
16) Even though I treat you like shit, you guys have always been there. just shut the fuck up everyone once and awhile please.
17) why cant i just pass?
18) youre like my little sister and i hope one day you find love and its perfect because you've waited.
19) get your shit straight people can catch you slipping so many times before they just get fed up. titles dont mean shit.
20) you have it in you. we've all seen it. just try, try do your best and then some. you want the world go get it. you know how, you've always known
2. Don't say who they are towards.
3. Feel free to receive comments, but don't confirm or answer anything
4. Never discuss it again
1) You are the strongest person i know. without your love and heart of gold i would not be able to be where i am today. i know i never had a strong enough relationship with you and i never got to express how much gratitude i have towards you but i want you to know that i love you, unconditionally.
2) you never cease to amaze me.both positively and negatively. theres this chemistry between us that i cant break no matter how hard it gets youre always there. i love you and hate you but reguardless i always want you.
3) I miss how we used to be so close like sisters and now that we're growing up we're dirfting lets bring it back to old times despite our busy schedules.
4) I wish you could find your own style and attitude instead of borrowing mine. but nonetheless we're still good friends.
5) I wish you would just get over her, honestly she's just never going to give you the attention you deserve! she's kinda like nancy catch my drift?
6) I want you to find someone so you wont be lonely, you deserve it after everything you do for everyone.
7) If only you weren't so naive. boys will only bring you down hill and i hope you wont end up like me.
8) I'm sorry for you lost recently, I just want you to know that i know what you did to me & my family, i can see youre a better person now, so i forgive you.
9) I hate you so much, how can you be so vain and shallow? how could you be so superficial? everyone hates you, you know that? they just dont want to say anything since we've been friends for so long. but dear, youre no friend of mine.
10) Shape up your act, youre in highschool now things are different if you slip away now; there's no telling who/when you'll be saved. if you will be saved.
11) You're truly a happy person and when I am around you you make me a really good/happy person. Im really thankful youre in my life and have gotten really close to me.
12) I miss you, you were mine.
13) I wish you would just be the person you once were, for me and the family. but i guess you cant teach an old dog new tricks.
14) Youre a fucking slut, i hate you. you cause so much tension for everyone and you just dont realize it! no one wonder he left you for another. you psychotic bitch. ughhh
15) Thank you for everything you've done for me and continue doing. youre like my guardian angel in human-form.
16) Even though I treat you like shit, you guys have always been there. just shut the fuck up everyone once and awhile please.
17) why cant i just pass?
18) youre like my little sister and i hope one day you find love and its perfect because you've waited.
19) get your shit straight people can catch you slipping so many times before they just get fed up. titles dont mean shit.
20) you have it in you. we've all seen it. just try, try do your best and then some. you want the world go get it. you know how, you've always known
Monday, January 5, 2009
New Age
It's been awhile since I last post I'm sorry for the followers and people who randomly stumble upon my blog! but anywho. i went to dara's viewing and that shit was just so intense. i've never partaken in a funeral or any of its events like a real funeral at a cemetary where people are burried. it was an experience i never want to wish upon anyone. just standing there you and the open casket with the body of a loved one is just too much emotion for words to explain. i was there standing infront of my friend who i've practically grown up with. in a sense i wasnt entirely close and stuff but close enough to where i found myself balling in tears non-stop. i couldnt stand to think this was the last time i'd see him face to face or rather him and the earth. i couldnt think of the pain his family was going through. i just did what i could i said my piece to him before i left and made a donation. i couldnt go to the funeral it was just overwhelming and i hope no one puts its against me. i wouldnt force anyone to go through what that entails. i miss you, dara. from the deepest part of my heart because even though we werent as close we all knew you shouldnt have gone. my sincerest sorrow goes out to you and your family.
to better parts of my life...
My boyfriend and i have gotten back together and have been argue-free! for about 2 months now and its like the greatest thing ever! we dont fight about stupid shit now. its all good. as i type this we'll probably fight later on now. hahaah. but really i think its due to both our efforts; me not sweating the small stuff and him being a better person and not picking on me and shit. and i will say that this bond will have to go out to the ps3 game LITTLE BIG PLANET. that game is just so cool/fun. i love it! what else. the holidays were great! for christmas i got like everything hello kitty it seemed like hahaha. and clothes pretty cool! :] i'm very thankful for everyone and i hope you enjoyed the card i wrote out to everybody because i put much thought into each and everyone of them! i didnt end up getting my boyfriend anythign really extravagent or what have you. he bought himself a ps3 and i bought him metal gear solid 4 which we both enjoyed playing. New years eve was my little sister's birthday and we had a little get together for her! her sweet 16 how cool. i remember when i turned 16 oh man it was a pretty chill party and i had a lot of fun with my family and friends.i hope she enjoyed it. after that shindig, wade and i went over to his house to celebrate! we had authentic japanese food and my fav. sashimi! and noodles the traditional japanese way to celebrate after the new year thing. wonderful, wade was cutting weight so he couldnt really eat so i felt like an uber fat ass! ahaha. anyway. i miss all my friends i havent gotten a break all of break except for like xmas eve, xmas, new years eve, new years, day after xmas/new years. wow my break is almost a month long and ive done nothing but work 9-5 everyday sucky!!!! but oh man do i love the pay checks after wards! wonderful its allowed me to spend a buttload on xmas and pay off my credit card! and!! buy my 150$ worth of make up which turns out to be like 2 and 1/4 things. AHHAHAHa. fucking a. designer make up sucks. well in price not quality because you get what you pay for i must say i am satisfied! :] i am loving the new year i must say! its wonderful i love my life. i love my boyfriend i love my friends.
to better parts of my life...
My boyfriend and i have gotten back together and have been argue-free! for about 2 months now and its like the greatest thing ever! we dont fight about stupid shit now. its all good. as i type this we'll probably fight later on now. hahaah. but really i think its due to both our efforts; me not sweating the small stuff and him being a better person and not picking on me and shit. and i will say that this bond will have to go out to the ps3 game LITTLE BIG PLANET. that game is just so cool/fun. i love it! what else. the holidays were great! for christmas i got like everything hello kitty it seemed like hahaha. and clothes pretty cool! :] i'm very thankful for everyone and i hope you enjoyed the card i wrote out to everybody because i put much thought into each and everyone of them! i didnt end up getting my boyfriend anythign really extravagent or what have you. he bought himself a ps3 and i bought him metal gear solid 4 which we both enjoyed playing. New years eve was my little sister's birthday and we had a little get together for her! her sweet 16 how cool. i remember when i turned 16 oh man it was a pretty chill party and i had a lot of fun with my family and friends.i hope she enjoyed it. after that shindig, wade and i went over to his house to celebrate! we had authentic japanese food and my fav. sashimi! and noodles the traditional japanese way to celebrate after the new year thing. wonderful, wade was cutting weight so he couldnt really eat so i felt like an uber fat ass! ahaha. anyway. i miss all my friends i havent gotten a break all of break except for like xmas eve, xmas, new years eve, new years, day after xmas/new years. wow my break is almost a month long and ive done nothing but work 9-5 everyday sucky!!!! but oh man do i love the pay checks after wards! wonderful its allowed me to spend a buttload on xmas and pay off my credit card! and!! buy my 150$ worth of make up which turns out to be like 2 and 1/4 things. AHHAHAHa. fucking a. designer make up sucks. well in price not quality because you get what you pay for i must say i am satisfied! :] i am loving the new year i must say! its wonderful i love my life. i love my boyfriend i love my friends.
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