New Age

It's been awhile since I last post I'm sorry for the followers and people who randomly stumble upon my blog! but anywho. i went to dara's viewing and that shit was just so intense. i've never partaken in a funeral or any of its events like a real funeral at a cemetary where people are burried. it was an experience i never want to wish upon anyone. just standing there you and the open casket with the body of a loved one is just too much emotion for words to explain. i was there standing infront of my friend who i've practically grown up with. in a sense i wasnt entirely close and stuff but close enough to where i found myself balling in tears non-stop. i couldnt stand to think this was the last time i'd see him face to face or rather him and the earth. i couldnt think of the pain his family was going through. i just did what i could i said my piece to him before i left and made a donation. i couldnt go to the funeral it was just overwhelming and i hope no one puts its against me. i wouldnt force anyone to go through what that entails. i miss you, dara. from the deepest part of my heart because even though we werent as close we all knew you shouldnt have gone. my sincerest sorrow goes out to you and your family.



to better parts of my life...

My boyfriend and i have gotten back together and have been argue-free! for about 2 months now and its like the greatest thing ever! we dont fight about stupid shit now. its all good. as i type this we'll probably fight later on now. hahaah. but really i think its due to both our efforts; me not sweating the small stuff and him being a better person and not picking on me and shit. and i will say that this bond will have to go out to the ps3 game LITTLE BIG PLANET. that game is just so cool/fun. i love it! what else. the holidays were great! for christmas i got like everything hello kitty it seemed like hahaha. and clothes pretty cool! :] i'm very thankful for everyone and i hope you enjoyed the card i wrote out to everybody because i put much thought into each and everyone of them! i didnt end up getting my boyfriend anythign really extravagent or what have you. he bought himself a ps3 and i bought him metal gear solid 4 which we both enjoyed playing. New years eve was my little sister's birthday and we had a little get together for her! her sweet 16 how cool. i remember when i turned 16 oh man it was a pretty chill party and i had a lot of fun with my family and friends.i hope she enjoyed it. after that shindig, wade and i went over to his house to celebrate! we had authentic japanese food and my fav. sashimi! and noodles the traditional japanese way to celebrate after the new year thing. wonderful, wade was cutting weight so he couldnt really eat so i felt like an uber fat ass! ahaha. anyway. i miss all my friends i havent gotten a break all of break except for like xmas eve, xmas, new years eve, new years, day after xmas/new years. wow my break is almost a month long and ive done nothing but work 9-5 everyday sucky!!!! but oh man do i love the pay checks after wards! wonderful its allowed me to spend a buttload on xmas and pay off my credit card! and!! buy my 150$ worth of make up which turns out to be like 2 and 1/4 things. AHHAHAHa. fucking a. designer make up sucks. well in price not quality because you get what you pay for i must say i am satisfied! :] i am loving the new year i must say! its wonderful i love my life. i love my boyfriend i love my friends.